My heart is a well running dry
My lungs, two bricks
I breathe and they crumble
I search for the words and
They are clumsy
I stumble and
trip
Over a tongue that’s too quick
for
A brain that is burnt out and foggy
And I spiral in a cyclical fashion
A typhoon of hopes and regret
And I close my eyes
But I don’t sleep
And my brain swells
And the fog clears
And retrospection bombards my nerves
Shaky and scared
Tired and angry
I draw out my sword and I drive it
Split it right though the center of my throat and
I am divided at the crossroads of
What parts of myself to pick up
What parts of myself, left to rot
So I spit out my tongue and set fire
And
Finally
there is a silence
Finally
There is a comfort
in the spilling of my guts
And from the flames I pick up my heart
Ashen like a Phoenix
But the char feels soft
The heat, alive
And I close my eyes
And I sleep.